New Years Eve Time to Reflect

So in my oh-so-glam life, it's NYE yet again. This will be the last one I spend by myself. Then again it's only 10 after 9 so several people I know could decide to be spontaneous closer to midnite. Something struck me as interesting the other night. OK, it was more like "huh?" I went out with some good friends to an event Friday night and when I asked 'is anyone planning anything for NYE?' the answer I got back was 'it's all about having someone to kiss at midnite and when you haven't got someone special it's depressing.' OK, well then. I've always looked at NYE as 3 basic things. 1) A chance to reflect on the past year [for this last year that would be a LONG entry], 2) a chance to plan to better oneself in the upcoming year [something I'm really, honestly looking forward to this year] and 3) it's 18 days til my birthday!! [Another reason I try to just deal with winter. UGH. However, I digress!

SO I ran across a theory earlier this year that you don't repeat an experience if you learn from it and recognize the lesson. God decides you have learn the lesson and on you move. I like that theory and God knows I've learned a lot this year.

So, the bad things. Not making the $$ with the job I'm in that I need to be making. Not having insurance. The ring drama. The subsequent bank crap. Seeing one of my once-closest friends in a not-so-pretty light. Kicking Robert to the curb. Going without sex. Not volunteering or going to church as intended. Not working on finding a boyfriend/permanent man for myself. Sophie getting crunched a smidge. [Sophie is my car & she's fine save for a few scrapes that you only see if you're really, really close to her.] The hottie bartender saga-D's is closed, thankfully so that drama crap is permanently over.

OK, now for the GOOD things!! I have a job I love in an industry that's addictive. Again, that whole not great $$, no insurance thing. Again, I digress. I have a beautiful apartment, my garden, in spite of NC's 15" range shortage, rocked it. 1/2 of it is still kicking on 12/31. We've not had a hard freeze but the plants will be inside when that happens. :) More good stuff...going to Canes games, finding meetups [thanks BFF Vonda!!] and subsequently the Red Sox meet up group, sitting thru HOW many hours of Joe "I love to listen to myself talk" Buck commentate prior to an 8:30 or whenever the hell we feel like starting the game...WINNING THE WORLD SERIES!! [I got my hoodie, I got my hoodie!!! Yeah, Yeah!!], meeting Sean, Amy and the rest of the great fantastic fans I now count as great friends, working with Diane, having my fabulous Sophie, my two dats in relatively good health, going to church more, a summer that went on and on and on...LOVE THAT!!, going to DC for TG, spending Christmas with Dad, etal in Maine, signing up for eharmony, knowing my friends, working out more, trying to kick CFS's butt [I'm not doing so hot at that but darned if won't keep on trying!] and so on.

So no, it is NOT about kissing someone at midnite, though that so WILL be happening next year! It's about renewal, starting again, reflecting, taking the wheat from the chaff [sp?] and moving on, hopefully a stronger, better person for all of it. Happy New Year!!!