Dating

So, one of my goals for 2009 is to have a serious boyfriend by year's end or a fiance, though that may be pushing it. However, you never know. So, I am signed up for Match.com and eharmony. Both are good sites. Not unlike social situations in public, there will be the liars, the cheaters, the fakes and the ballers.

I have been blunt and honest in both profiles and I've got a slew of matches on eharmony (where they match you) and I'm picking and being picked on match.com. I've had to be clear in saying 'I would love to grab a drink with you once I get up to Raleigh...in the meantime we'll have to e-mail and get to know each other that way.' I'll see how that goes.

I'm going thru things within me and getting clarity and whatnot, slowly. I can feel things going away, floating off peacefully if you will. That feels good but there's stuff still there that has to be dealt with. I was overcome with emotion when the Steelers won...for no real particular reason that I can think of because I wasn't rooting for either team as my teams were out. But I let myself just cry. Felt good.

Tonight 2 things made me teary. 1) a caller on a radio show called and was asking very specific, clear questions of the host regarding her home and finances. No bitterness, anger, angst or whatever. Just 'what do you recommend?' With like 11 children to raise, on her own. The part that touched me more than just her story was the number of people who called into the same show and wanted to help her out. The human spirit and the people in this country are amazing; it's too bad there's no political benefit for trying to tap that. Made me teary-eyed.

2) I'm watching Homeland Security USA and they showed a marine homecoming to DFW and, for real, if that doesn't bring you to tears you need to go figure out what's wrong with you. Not only do people stand and clap and show their appreciation for the men and women who serve our country but the families were at the airport too and, for real, that sacrifice and the job they do, no matter how you feel about the wars, is just amazing. I'm in awe of it; I really am.

OK, so I went a little off track...back to the dating thing. I am opening myself up, communicating with as many people as possible, being picky, finding number of cute, sports-loving Catholics and taking inspiration from the Bachelor...learning a lesson or 2 from these girls and their behavior, etc.

Wish me luck. :p