Normally, as most of you know, I am not a movie person. There are 2 reasons for this. 1) My illness makes me prone to nodding off in dark places and theatres tend to be breeding growns for this! 2) Most movies aren't worth the ticket price.
Recently I went with a friend to a matinee performance/showing of "Get Smart". I am NOT a Steve Carrell fan, at all. He is up there on my list with Will Ferrell of people I can't stomach in anything. Imagine my surprise at "Get Smart". Ann Hathaway is brilliant, as, admittedly, is Steve Carrell. The comic timing and the pace are brilliant. It kept me guessing and laughing from start to finish and I'm blogging about it. Go see this movie. Really. 4 stars!! :p
Monday, June 30, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
Days-d & Confused
OK, so for months, yes months, my mom, God love her, has been telling me about this guy Jason, the son of their church friends. He's very nice and all of it and he's not married...and, would you please just meet him. [If you know my mom you know that is SOOO not a request as much as it's 'you will meet him (dammit)!'] My mother and subtle and Jason's mom and subtle are not friends...they know not subtle-ty as a concept, relative or otherwise.
I digress. A few weeks ago, mom invited the Hughes over for dinner so Jason and I could meet. He is very nice and the 4 parents were trying to give us a chance to get to know each other and whatnot. So mom had suggested to him that he ask me if I'd like to go shoot pool.
We've been out twice, once to this sports bar/pool place where we talked for 4 hours and then to a movie, Get Smart. Hilarious..but I digress.
he's good looking, I'm not in 'hello hot' ville just right now but he's very nice, sweet, not pushing himself on me, we have a lot in common.
So Dave gets a call from Anna, his daughter, then proceeds to, par for Dave, get his undies totally in a wad about Anna being mad at him because he was supposed to be in WI tonight not tomorrow night and he didn't call Anna...and so he blames mom. OK fine. So I'm like 'uh,'...and then Connie, is talking about helping homeless and poor people and I said that I'd never blame my husband for something that was clearly my error. Well it came out like I'd never help homeless or poor people...so Jason starts ribbing me and he's funny so mom, sitting next to him, is laughing til she's tearing up, as am I.
So I said something about payback and he's like 'you're not gonna have too many more opportunities'...and then when Jim, his dad, mentioned my trip to Maine over the 4th, Jason seemed sorta miffed.
So then, when mom & I left, Dave having left before us, mom hugs Connie & Jason, Jim was in bed, then I hugged them both. I feel like there might be something there worth working on. we shall see a person guesses.
I digress. A few weeks ago, mom invited the Hughes over for dinner so Jason and I could meet. He is very nice and the 4 parents were trying to give us a chance to get to know each other and whatnot. So mom had suggested to him that he ask me if I'd like to go shoot pool.
We've been out twice, once to this sports bar/pool place where we talked for 4 hours and then to a movie, Get Smart. Hilarious..but I digress.
he's good looking, I'm not in 'hello hot' ville just right now but he's very nice, sweet, not pushing himself on me, we have a lot in common.
So Dave gets a call from Anna, his daughter, then proceeds to, par for Dave, get his undies totally in a wad about Anna being mad at him because he was supposed to be in WI tonight not tomorrow night and he didn't call Anna...and so he blames mom. OK fine. So I'm like 'uh,'...and then Connie, is talking about helping homeless and poor people and I said that I'd never blame my husband for something that was clearly my error. Well it came out like I'd never help homeless or poor people...so Jason starts ribbing me and he's funny so mom, sitting next to him, is laughing til she's tearing up, as am I.
So I said something about payback and he's like 'you're not gonna have too many more opportunities'...and then when Jim, his dad, mentioned my trip to Maine over the 4th, Jason seemed sorta miffed.
So then, when mom & I left, Dave having left before us, mom hugs Connie & Jason, Jim was in bed, then I hugged them both. I feel like there might be something there worth working on. we shall see a person guesses.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Why Is "All Of This" So Hard?
One of my dearest friends, who is attending both individual and marriage therapy at my urging, asked me this recently. I said,'by "all of this" I assume you mean the work, the digging up hard feelings, hurt feelings, drama, crap, old stuff, etc.?'
She: 'uh, yes'
Me:'Honey, I promise you will be, for better or worse, but most likely better, in a new, better place when all is said and done. I also promise you it will be hard work, it will hurt, it will burn, sting and make you want to just stop. The good about therapy is that once you've started....well, it's kinda like taking all the crap out of your closet, putting it everywhere to sort it into 3 categories and then put it back...only when you put it back you can see it all, find it all and everything actually fits!!!...you can't just stop and decide you're done. Well you can but then you're stuck looking at it and you're missing that space you had bc it's covered by crap you likely don't even remember you had/don't need/doesn't fit.'
I had to remind her of the rule with me: if you want me to tell you what you want to hear, tell me so I can repeat it back to you...if you want the truth, brace yourself and stand back. No, I'm serious.
So, we move on to my mom. Mom is doing amazing, seriously. She has a long, long way to go but she's doing a great job with therapy and the whole thing. So we had therapy last week and she was pouting. She doesn't like her leg brace, which is now off, thank you very much nor does she like the wrist brace, which she was told she could take off after a month..so it is now on part-time only. So she's doing her exercises and we're making the knee flex, the knee cap move. It's pretty cool but it's ridiculous too. So last week we're at her PT appointment and the therapist notices 'hey, youre braces are both off and you're not using the cane!' Mom thinks she's being cool and says something about it rubs and the other 5 excuses she uses. So then she says 'oh so you've been back to the doctor [since last I saw you, 7 days ago]?' Mom:'uh, no' Me:'she's just over it'
Therapist: 'so you're still supposed to be wearing the brace, per dr's orders, until 7/7?'
Mom: 'well, i talked to the dr's office and they said whatever i'm comfortable with.'
Mom thinks that they think less of her because she's 63 and she may 'fall'. I'm like mom, no golf, no moving that joint in that way, no pitching even! The tendon's aren't 100% yet.
GOD BLESS THE THERAPIST FOR SAYING EXSCTLY WHAT I SAID!!! and then when we got home, I made mom repeat it to Dave. I'm not trying to be mean, but I've seen dancers do some small thing they've done 1,000 times that this one time messed them up and threw them off or set them back in their recovery. Mom's getting better at putting the effort into exercising and listening to me. It is hard because you were hit head on and you were hurt in many ways. You are recovering and it's painful...but it'll be worth it when you can golf again.
I once saw an e-mail that talked about a caterpillar and the little boy who tried to help the little thing. Long story short,the caterpillar needs that struggle and the journey of growth in the cocoon before it comes out a butterfly to build strong wings and the whole thing and when the little boy tried to help by breaking the cocoon open, the butterfly was 'free' but it was also inprisoned because it couldn't sustain itself and died shortly thereafter. Things are hard to make us stronger, better...that which does not kill you....
She: 'uh, yes'
Me:'Honey, I promise you will be, for better or worse, but most likely better, in a new, better place when all is said and done. I also promise you it will be hard work, it will hurt, it will burn, sting and make you want to just stop. The good about therapy is that once you've started....well, it's kinda like taking all the crap out of your closet, putting it everywhere to sort it into 3 categories and then put it back...only when you put it back you can see it all, find it all and everything actually fits!!!...you can't just stop and decide you're done. Well you can but then you're stuck looking at it and you're missing that space you had bc it's covered by crap you likely don't even remember you had/don't need/doesn't fit.'
I had to remind her of the rule with me: if you want me to tell you what you want to hear, tell me so I can repeat it back to you...if you want the truth, brace yourself and stand back. No, I'm serious.
So, we move on to my mom. Mom is doing amazing, seriously. She has a long, long way to go but she's doing a great job with therapy and the whole thing. So we had therapy last week and she was pouting. She doesn't like her leg brace, which is now off, thank you very much nor does she like the wrist brace, which she was told she could take off after a month..so it is now on part-time only. So she's doing her exercises and we're making the knee flex, the knee cap move. It's pretty cool but it's ridiculous too. So last week we're at her PT appointment and the therapist notices 'hey, youre braces are both off and you're not using the cane!' Mom thinks she's being cool and says something about it rubs and the other 5 excuses she uses. So then she says 'oh so you've been back to the doctor [since last I saw you, 7 days ago]?' Mom:'uh, no' Me:'she's just over it'
Therapist: 'so you're still supposed to be wearing the brace, per dr's orders, until 7/7?'
Mom: 'well, i talked to the dr's office and they said whatever i'm comfortable with.'
Mom thinks that they think less of her because she's 63 and she may 'fall'. I'm like mom, no golf, no moving that joint in that way, no pitching even! The tendon's aren't 100% yet.
GOD BLESS THE THERAPIST FOR SAYING EXSCTLY WHAT I SAID!!! and then when we got home, I made mom repeat it to Dave. I'm not trying to be mean, but I've seen dancers do some small thing they've done 1,000 times that this one time messed them up and threw them off or set them back in their recovery. Mom's getting better at putting the effort into exercising and listening to me. It is hard because you were hit head on and you were hurt in many ways. You are recovering and it's painful...but it'll be worth it when you can golf again.
I once saw an e-mail that talked about a caterpillar and the little boy who tried to help the little thing. Long story short,the caterpillar needs that struggle and the journey of growth in the cocoon before it comes out a butterfly to build strong wings and the whole thing and when the little boy tried to help by breaking the cocoon open, the butterfly was 'free' but it was also inprisoned because it couldn't sustain itself and died shortly thereafter. Things are hard to make us stronger, better...that which does not kill you....
Mine Own 101 List...
One of my dear friends has created a 101 List and I've decided to do the same. Concrete ideas...with deadlines. Goals. I can do this. I will do this. :)
Watch for it!!
Watch for it!!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Choosing You.....
I have 4 interesting situations with the same issue at the heart of each of these unique situations. The same choice must be made in each case.
Case 1: A close friend is just out of college, starting their life/career and they are saddled with new things, responsibilities and family stuff in addition to an interesting situation with a BFF who's out of control, in the context of their relationship. We have been friends for nearly 2 years and you'd think we've know each other since birth...this person has known their BFF for much longer but has run into an issue. The situation was explained to me and I said 'choose you.' This garnered the usual reaction: 'huh? but, wha-? wait choose me?'
Case 2: A mom who's torn in several different directions with regard to family, family-in-law and her immediate needs with her children/husband/life in their home. She told me her whole story and I said, you guessed it, 'choose you.' And again I got: 'huh? but I'm not-' me: 'you're not what? you're not selfish? you can't DO that? that's a dumb option.' her: 'why is that a dumb option? you choose to take care of you and your needs 1st. everything else comes 2nd...it's only hard to do because everyone thinks your choice is 'them or us' and it is NOT. Neither. If your core family and your personal needs are not met, you owe it to yourself, you need to respect yourself enough to put that little foot [she wears like a 5.5 and she's in her 30s] and stand firm. I got the standard silence on the other end of the phone.
Case 3: Person has graduated college with a degree in something useless [I say this because a Bachelor in anything except maybe Business or Finance is useless nowadays] and mom wants him to do one thing, dad another. So he tells me about this business venture he'd like to partake. He has a business plan, financials to do it, the mind for it and the passion for both running the business and doing the thing that the business is about. So I said 'um, choose you.' We're IM'ing. He IMs something:'duh, silly, that's not one of the choices.' So I explain to him what I explained to friends 1 & 2. If your heart is not happy, if you don't put you first, why should anyone else? If you can't manage to honor your wants, needs, your Soul's greatest need, hello?! He's told both his parents what he is doing and oddly they're being supportive [I say oddly because his parents are very starchy, this is how it's done type people. They decided not to "tell him he was gay til he was older" when they saw him secretly busting out Michael Jackson moves in the basement when he was like 9...he's in his late 20s and not at all gay.]
Case 4: I have a friend who's got a child from a previous marriage and he's dating someone with the same. They've been together over a decade, love each other very much. The problem lies in his beloved's child and ex-. His beloved's ex-hubby is for all intents and purposes insane and angry - you know the type...if I can't figure out the Rubix cube o' life and decide to be happy then no one else gets to be happy either. The ex-hubby was totally fine with the divorce 15 years ago...until he wasn't. My friend's been thru 2 deaths in 2007 and an ongoing situation that is emotionally very taxing for him. His beloved tried very hard, when she has the child in question, to be mom & dad. To compensate for her idiot, insane ex-hubby who seriously, except for that he takes his meds 3 or 4 days before court appearance so as to get the requisite sympathy/BS/drama vote from the judge. The fact that he doesn't work because of his 'debilitating illness' despite the fact that millions of americans have the exact same thing or similar and function just fine when their meds are correct doesn't enter the judge's mind apparently. So beloved pays for her ex's life essentially and tries to be both parents. Yeah, that works like 1 person trying to play all 9 positions in a baseball line up at the same time...I've never seen this done well or at all...have you? BUT I DIGRESS. Oh and did I mention the child has issues now as well because beloved has no spine when it comes to the kid....so he comes to me and says 'what would you do? who would you choose?' I said, 'oh that's easy. I'd choose me.' He was silent. "You'd...wait, did you just hear what I told you?" me: 'uh yes, and I am pretty sure the earth is still rotating on its axis.' So, sarcasm aside for a moment or none, I said 'let me clarify for you.' You, as an adult and 1/2 of this romantic/adult couple, have needs and wants, correct? HIM: 'uh yes, but...' me: 'what she heard was [she] has to choose her lover/best friend/SO or her kid. That my friend is NOT the choice. She can't be mom & dad to her child. She can be the best mom she knows to be...and that's it. No guilt, BS or drama. She is a parent, not a friend, buddy, BFF to her kid. Remember when we were kids and our parents put the fear of God in us. We know our parents loved us even on the days we really wanted to wear whatever or do whatever.' HIM: "yeah, but this is different." ME: "how? My parents divorced when Iwas 4! Hello?! I lived this....my mom chose herself many times. She took time to re-charge and have fun with her friends while we were safely at my grandparents or whatever. No harm, no foul. Your beloved's kid doesn't get "extra love" because mom loves you 'more' to attempt to...NO, it doesn't work that way. Mom feels guilty and it tears her up and she feels like she has to....the choice made by answering the following questions:
1) What do you view your current choices as? Notice I did not ask What are your choices? This is a perception question, kids.
2) Do your choices leave you feeling like you are in a better, more relaxed, more in-charge place for having made said choices?
3) Do you get hurt no matter which of your perceived choices you make?
4) Do you, in choosing either A or B, lose something that means a great deal to you? [e.g. your beloved, intimacy, part of your heart]
So all the friends basically said in one fashion or another 'ok, so if I were to "Choose me", what the [ ] do I do next?' Sarcastic self says 'Well, ya open up the nearest window, regardless of the time and shout your choice to the world! DUH!' Realistic self says 'well, that depends on your circumstances.'
So, in the case of my BFF and her BFF, I told her we need to work on a letter or e-mail to the friend in violation and explain where the bear does his business then have a ComeToJesus so we're all on the same page. Yes, for a fact, it's gonne feel like you've slapped the long term BFF but guess what, she needs it...the other option is a dunk in Boston Harbor and you'd likely have to be in HAZMAT ISO for a week so let's not....so we're working on the letter.
IN my friend with family issues, she told her fam and in-laws, in a conference call no less what she was doing and why. OK, so our barely 5' daughter has cajones after all. Bravo for her!! That friend got a verbal Hi-5! It's not easy growin' 'em but ya gotta.
Case 3. He is working thru doing what he wants to do with his life, being his own boss, with no objections from his family tho he is pretty sure he'll wake up one morning to tell me about 'this crazy dream he had'. Nope, your reality my friend is the dream and it freakin' rocks!!
Case 4. I told my friend to have this discussion with his beloved about her choosing herself, not him or her child. I also said 'hey, feel free to steer her my way. I am happy to give her the real deal. Sometimes a 3rd party gets the point across because I have only 1 agenda...you happy? Great, me too! So we'll see on cases 1 & 4 what happens.
The point though is simple. Society tells us we are self-ish if we take care of ourselves. No you're getting close to burnout. Take care of you, your needs, wants, your self. Odd how that helps you be better for everybody else. If you want more advice on how to apply it to your specific, 1st-time-in-recorded-history situation or you wanna tell me I'm full of it, feel free. I'm here all week... :p
Case 1: A close friend is just out of college, starting their life/career and they are saddled with new things, responsibilities and family stuff in addition to an interesting situation with a BFF who's out of control, in the context of their relationship. We have been friends for nearly 2 years and you'd think we've know each other since birth...this person has known their BFF for much longer but has run into an issue. The situation was explained to me and I said 'choose you.' This garnered the usual reaction: 'huh? but, wha-? wait choose me?'
Case 2: A mom who's torn in several different directions with regard to family, family-in-law and her immediate needs with her children/husband/life in their home. She told me her whole story and I said, you guessed it, 'choose you.' And again I got: 'huh? but I'm not-' me: 'you're not what? you're not selfish? you can't DO that? that's a dumb option.' her: 'why is that a dumb option? you choose to take care of you and your needs 1st. everything else comes 2nd...it's only hard to do because everyone thinks your choice is 'them or us' and it is NOT. Neither. If your core family and your personal needs are not met, you owe it to yourself, you need to respect yourself enough to put that little foot [she wears like a 5.5 and she's in her 30s] and stand firm. I got the standard silence on the other end of the phone.
Case 3: Person has graduated college with a degree in something useless [I say this because a Bachelor in anything except maybe Business or Finance is useless nowadays] and mom wants him to do one thing, dad another. So he tells me about this business venture he'd like to partake. He has a business plan, financials to do it, the mind for it and the passion for both running the business and doing the thing that the business is about. So I said 'um, choose you.' We're IM'ing. He IMs something:'duh, silly, that's not one of the choices.' So I explain to him what I explained to friends 1 & 2. If your heart is not happy, if you don't put you first, why should anyone else? If you can't manage to honor your wants, needs, your Soul's greatest need, hello?! He's told both his parents what he is doing and oddly they're being supportive [I say oddly because his parents are very starchy, this is how it's done type people. They decided not to "tell him he was gay til he was older" when they saw him secretly busting out Michael Jackson moves in the basement when he was like 9...he's in his late 20s and not at all gay.]
Case 4: I have a friend who's got a child from a previous marriage and he's dating someone with the same. They've been together over a decade, love each other very much. The problem lies in his beloved's child and ex-. His beloved's ex-hubby is for all intents and purposes insane and angry - you know the type...if I can't figure out the Rubix cube o' life and decide to be happy then no one else gets to be happy either. The ex-hubby was totally fine with the divorce 15 years ago...until he wasn't. My friend's been thru 2 deaths in 2007 and an ongoing situation that is emotionally very taxing for him. His beloved tried very hard, when she has the child in question, to be mom & dad. To compensate for her idiot, insane ex-hubby who seriously, except for that he takes his meds 3 or 4 days before court appearance so as to get the requisite sympathy/BS/drama vote from the judge. The fact that he doesn't work because of his 'debilitating illness' despite the fact that millions of americans have the exact same thing or similar and function just fine when their meds are correct doesn't enter the judge's mind apparently. So beloved pays for her ex's life essentially and tries to be both parents. Yeah, that works like 1 person trying to play all 9 positions in a baseball line up at the same time...I've never seen this done well or at all...have you? BUT I DIGRESS. Oh and did I mention the child has issues now as well because beloved has no spine when it comes to the kid....so he comes to me and says 'what would you do? who would you choose?' I said, 'oh that's easy. I'd choose me.' He was silent. "You'd...wait, did you just hear what I told you?" me: 'uh yes, and I am pretty sure the earth is still rotating on its axis.' So, sarcasm aside for a moment or none, I said 'let me clarify for you.' You, as an adult and 1/2 of this romantic/adult couple, have needs and wants, correct? HIM: 'uh yes, but...' me: 'what she heard was [she] has to choose her lover/best friend/SO or her kid. That my friend is NOT the choice. She can't be mom & dad to her child. She can be the best mom she knows to be...and that's it. No guilt, BS or drama. She is a parent, not a friend, buddy, BFF to her kid. Remember when we were kids and our parents put the fear of God in us. We know our parents loved us even on the days we really wanted to wear whatever or do whatever.' HIM: "yeah, but this is different." ME: "how? My parents divorced when Iwas 4! Hello?! I lived this....my mom chose herself many times. She took time to re-charge and have fun with her friends while we were safely at my grandparents or whatever. No harm, no foul. Your beloved's kid doesn't get "extra love" because mom loves you 'more' to attempt to...NO, it doesn't work that way. Mom feels guilty and it tears her up and she feels like she has to....the choice made by answering the following questions:
1) What do you view your current choices as? Notice I did not ask What are your choices? This is a perception question, kids.
2) Do your choices leave you feeling like you are in a better, more relaxed, more in-charge place for having made said choices?
3) Do you get hurt no matter which of your perceived choices you make?
4) Do you, in choosing either A or B, lose something that means a great deal to you? [e.g. your beloved, intimacy, part of your heart]
So all the friends basically said in one fashion or another 'ok, so if I were to "Choose me", what the [ ] do I do next?' Sarcastic self says 'Well, ya open up the nearest window, regardless of the time and shout your choice to the world! DUH!' Realistic self says 'well, that depends on your circumstances.'
So, in the case of my BFF and her BFF, I told her we need to work on a letter or e-mail to the friend in violation and explain where the bear does his business then have a ComeToJesus so we're all on the same page. Yes, for a fact, it's gonne feel like you've slapped the long term BFF but guess what, she needs it...the other option is a dunk in Boston Harbor and you'd likely have to be in HAZMAT ISO for a week so let's not....so we're working on the letter.
IN my friend with family issues, she told her fam and in-laws, in a conference call no less what she was doing and why. OK, so our barely 5' daughter has cajones after all. Bravo for her!! That friend got a verbal Hi-5! It's not easy growin' 'em but ya gotta.
Case 3. He is working thru doing what he wants to do with his life, being his own boss, with no objections from his family tho he is pretty sure he'll wake up one morning to tell me about 'this crazy dream he had'. Nope, your reality my friend is the dream and it freakin' rocks!!
Case 4. I told my friend to have this discussion with his beloved about her choosing herself, not him or her child. I also said 'hey, feel free to steer her my way. I am happy to give her the real deal. Sometimes a 3rd party gets the point across because I have only 1 agenda...you happy? Great, me too! So we'll see on cases 1 & 4 what happens.
The point though is simple. Society tells us we are self-ish if we take care of ourselves. No you're getting close to burnout. Take care of you, your needs, wants, your self. Odd how that helps you be better for everybody else. If you want more advice on how to apply it to your specific, 1st-time-in-recorded-history situation or you wanna tell me I'm full of it, feel free. I'm here all week... :p
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Microsoft Office
I know, I know...SUCH a deep topic! I mean, really, could I be more exciting and glam? OK, so yeah, maybe not. LOL I found the whole business suite for MO for free for 60 days, including Access and God Bless 'em, I didn't have to give my credit card #...so I can't screw up and go 'WTF is that $$$ charge doing on my card?!' It's beautiful so I am teaching myself .:) AAhhh.
On to the interview. It went fine. Black pants, black jacket, white top, black heels. It would be on a per transaction basis, part-time. That's fine. A BFF chewed me out about it saying it's the same crap I just came from. Uh, no. However, I know well that sometimes it's just best to shut up and let things be how they are. It went well. I did another test on ODesk and applied for 2 more jobs on VV. Cross your fingers. {Thanks!}
On to the interview. It went fine. Black pants, black jacket, white top, black heels. It would be on a per transaction basis, part-time. That's fine. A BFF chewed me out about it saying it's the same crap I just came from. Uh, no. However, I know well that sometimes it's just best to shut up and let things be how they are. It went well. I did another test on ODesk and applied for 2 more jobs on VV. Cross your fingers. {Thanks!}
The Business of Progress
Good news...1st, I have an interview Thurs at 4 to be a per transaction assistant to a realtor. Could be cool. :D
2nd, got an e-mail from a builder/contractor interested in interviewing w/me for PT position. I've forwarded references and salary req to them thus far. We'll see.
3rd, got a call from the petsitting people who took care of the kids over Christmas bc they had an opening. I hope to connect with that person tomorrow.
4th...and for me, oddly, the most exciting piece of news...I downloaded Microsoft Office 2007, which includes Access!!!!!!!!!!! as a free trial download for 60 days...I am hoping and praying that I can re-teach it to myself as I used it at Pulte and Turner and do some online virtual assisting/projects and get myself established that way. It would be a huge help.
As I told a friend of mine today, and mom this evening, I feel like after really reflecting on it, I would like to do contract work or work online and do maybe 2 or 3 part time jobs so I have more freedom. I used to be big on 'managing' this, that and the 3rd. I'm honestly not so itnerested in that at this point. I really think I want the freedom to be able to travel, enough $$ to take the trips I'm planning to take and get my bills back in line, etc., I want to get my health and my teeth figured out and I want love in my life. I want a great guy. The right great guy. I feel as if I'm moving in the correct direction.
2nd, got an e-mail from a builder/contractor interested in interviewing w/me for PT position. I've forwarded references and salary req to them thus far. We'll see.
3rd, got a call from the petsitting people who took care of the kids over Christmas bc they had an opening. I hope to connect with that person tomorrow.
4th...and for me, oddly, the most exciting piece of news...I downloaded Microsoft Office 2007, which includes Access!!!!!!!!!!! as a free trial download for 60 days...I am hoping and praying that I can re-teach it to myself as I used it at Pulte and Turner and do some online virtual assisting/projects and get myself established that way. It would be a huge help.
As I told a friend of mine today, and mom this evening, I feel like after really reflecting on it, I would like to do contract work or work online and do maybe 2 or 3 part time jobs so I have more freedom. I used to be big on 'managing' this, that and the 3rd. I'm honestly not so itnerested in that at this point. I really think I want the freedom to be able to travel, enough $$ to take the trips I'm planning to take and get my bills back in line, etc., I want to get my health and my teeth figured out and I want love in my life. I want a great guy. The right great guy. I feel as if I'm moving in the correct direction.
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