I know, I know...SUCH a deep topic! I mean, really, could I be more exciting and glam? OK, so yeah, maybe not. LOL I found the whole business suite for MO for free for 60 days, including Access and God Bless 'em, I didn't have to give my credit card #...so I can't screw up and go 'WTF is that $$$ charge doing on my card?!' It's beautiful so I am teaching myself .:) AAhhh.
On to the interview. It went fine. Black pants, black jacket, white top, black heels. It would be on a per transaction basis, part-time. That's fine. A BFF chewed me out about it saying it's the same crap I just came from. Uh, no. However, I know well that sometimes it's just best to shut up and let things be how they are. It went well. I did another test on ODesk and applied for 2 more jobs on VV. Cross your fingers. {Thanks!}
Thursday, March 20, 2008
The Business of Progress
Good news...1st, I have an interview Thurs at 4 to be a per transaction assistant to a realtor. Could be cool. :D
2nd, got an e-mail from a builder/contractor interested in interviewing w/me for PT position. I've forwarded references and salary req to them thus far. We'll see.
3rd, got a call from the petsitting people who took care of the kids over Christmas bc they had an opening. I hope to connect with that person tomorrow.
4th...and for me, oddly, the most exciting piece of news...I downloaded Microsoft Office 2007, which includes Access!!!!!!!!!!! as a free trial download for 60 days...I am hoping and praying that I can re-teach it to myself as I used it at Pulte and Turner and do some online virtual assisting/projects and get myself established that way. It would be a huge help.
As I told a friend of mine today, and mom this evening, I feel like after really reflecting on it, I would like to do contract work or work online and do maybe 2 or 3 part time jobs so I have more freedom. I used to be big on 'managing' this, that and the 3rd. I'm honestly not so itnerested in that at this point. I really think I want the freedom to be able to travel, enough $$ to take the trips I'm planning to take and get my bills back in line, etc., I want to get my health and my teeth figured out and I want love in my life. I want a great guy. The right great guy. I feel as if I'm moving in the correct direction.
2nd, got an e-mail from a builder/contractor interested in interviewing w/me for PT position. I've forwarded references and salary req to them thus far. We'll see.
3rd, got a call from the petsitting people who took care of the kids over Christmas bc they had an opening. I hope to connect with that person tomorrow.
4th...and for me, oddly, the most exciting piece of news...I downloaded Microsoft Office 2007, which includes Access!!!!!!!!!!! as a free trial download for 60 days...I am hoping and praying that I can re-teach it to myself as I used it at Pulte and Turner and do some online virtual assisting/projects and get myself established that way. It would be a huge help.
As I told a friend of mine today, and mom this evening, I feel like after really reflecting on it, I would like to do contract work or work online and do maybe 2 or 3 part time jobs so I have more freedom. I used to be big on 'managing' this, that and the 3rd. I'm honestly not so itnerested in that at this point. I really think I want the freedom to be able to travel, enough $$ to take the trips I'm planning to take and get my bills back in line, etc., I want to get my health and my teeth figured out and I want love in my life. I want a great guy. The right great guy. I feel as if I'm moving in the correct direction.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Missing Person
No no one I know is missing. I miss some of my friends. Friend 1 I had known for years, since 1989 as a matter of fact. I screwed up and then sent a note/birthday card i should not have sent. So I finally wrote her again to explain the last 16 months or so and say I was sorry because I was and am. I did something dumb. I've not heard from her. My VBFF got a Christmas card from her. God Bless her; she's a great chick and deserves nothing but the best.
Friend 2 goes back to my Boston days. One of the many but she was always extremely supportive of me, VBFF and our endeavors. We had a lot of great times. She lives on the E. Coast now and we've just recently started to re-re-acquaint.
Friend 3 is here in Raleigh and is just distant. We're close but we're not and I wish we were closer.
Friend 4 was gone for a week, the week since I've been out of work and can I just say...damn long week without Friend. I miss this person and can't wait to see them, I think I will tomorrow. It was odd having them gone. Talking only 1x during the last week. Very, very strange. I miss them terribly.
I miss parts of me as well. I think I know where they are and how to get them back...stay tuned.
Friend 2 goes back to my Boston days. One of the many but she was always extremely supportive of me, VBFF and our endeavors. We had a lot of great times. She lives on the E. Coast now and we've just recently started to re-re-acquaint.
Friend 3 is here in Raleigh and is just distant. We're close but we're not and I wish we were closer.
Friend 4 was gone for a week, the week since I've been out of work and can I just say...damn long week without Friend. I miss this person and can't wait to see them, I think I will tomorrow. It was odd having them gone. Talking only 1x during the last week. Very, very strange. I miss them terribly.
I miss parts of me as well. I think I know where they are and how to get them back...stay tuned.
Working thru it.
I've done some cleaning in the house, ironed a whole 4 things...with about 20 more to go, found long lost jewelry I will never wear which I'm going to put up for sale and discovered a CD dealing with authenticity and anger and such.
I think that's Tuesday's task.
Amazing what you find when you look. Around your house or inside yourself. Never know what you'll find.
I think that's Tuesday's task.
Amazing what you find when you look. Around your house or inside yourself. Never know what you'll find.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Mishmash
Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. I'm pondering cookie making, working out, applying for jobs, hair coloring among other choices. I should work out so I can then color the hair, then apply for jobs online until the hair is done, finish the hair the start the cookies, continue applying for jobs, blogging, whatnot.
Pay some bills, join make-n-dollars.com. I'm reading this book, a memoir, about an Iranian woman who was in Evin as a political prisoner for 2 years. If I was in any country other than this one I am pretty sure I would also be in prison. I have a mouth and it opens. Therefore I AM. I am so blessed to live in a country that allows me to speak my mind, right or wrong, whether I agree with my government, my employer, my friends, family or anyone else for that matter. The great irony of this country, or one of them anyway, is that our military fights for us daily, to protect our right to speak out, even against them, their service and this war, the one we're winning.
1 of the things in this world that seriously gets on my nerves is people who are against something or someone and when you challenge them or ask why they're anti- they get angry with you! Be for or against whatever you choose but please, be able to back it up. For example, being in NC during the Duke Lacrosse case, I got a different, better, more rounded view of the whole situation than, I found out, did the rest of the nation. I am the 1st person to say, if someone has violated someone else sexually, lock them up. I knew very early on that something was very wrong; nothing was adding up. I spoke with my mom, my gramma and my very best friend, all in 3 different states and they were not getting the full story. At any rate, someone asked me what I thought of it and I was blunt: "I hope they punish the girl and exonerate the boys then take every single thing they can from Nifong." The look I got was 'oh, no you didn't!' with a mouth wide open. Then I got even bolder and said 'the sadder thing is that racism runs so deep in Durham and the people are so stupid that they didn't question it. A black girl said she was raped by three [presumed wealthy] white Duke students so therefore she's a helpless victim, they are guilty and that's the end of it. ' The person I was talking to was not from here. But when I asked what the thoughts behind their opinion were I was accused of being racist and then told it was not relevant because they were guilty, I'd see and how dare I not back her. Um, OK. I let it go because sometimes you're just not going to win. As it happened, they were not guilty at all, the case should have died in a folder on the DA's desk but it didn't and Duke, the city of Durham, Nifong, NC and everyone involved has a lot to live with. Funny how nobody came back to say 'I apologize for rushing to judgement of these fine young men.' Nobody who swooped into to accuse and point fingers came back to offer an apology. Nifong and Duke did, under durress. Not a single person from NCCU said a thing. Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton, ever infamous for getting in the middle of every perceived injustice and making it their business to demand 'justice', did not come back to Durham to say they were wrong. If you cannot back up what you're saying, you might want to think 1st because you could ruin someone's life, reputation.
Pay some bills, join make-n-dollars.com. I'm reading this book, a memoir, about an Iranian woman who was in Evin as a political prisoner for 2 years. If I was in any country other than this one I am pretty sure I would also be in prison. I have a mouth and it opens. Therefore I AM. I am so blessed to live in a country that allows me to speak my mind, right or wrong, whether I agree with my government, my employer, my friends, family or anyone else for that matter. The great irony of this country, or one of them anyway, is that our military fights for us daily, to protect our right to speak out, even against them, their service and this war, the one we're winning.
1 of the things in this world that seriously gets on my nerves is people who are against something or someone and when you challenge them or ask why they're anti- they get angry with you! Be for or against whatever you choose but please, be able to back it up. For example, being in NC during the Duke Lacrosse case, I got a different, better, more rounded view of the whole situation than, I found out, did the rest of the nation. I am the 1st person to say, if someone has violated someone else sexually, lock them up. I knew very early on that something was very wrong; nothing was adding up. I spoke with my mom, my gramma and my very best friend, all in 3 different states and they were not getting the full story. At any rate, someone asked me what I thought of it and I was blunt: "I hope they punish the girl and exonerate the boys then take every single thing they can from Nifong." The look I got was 'oh, no you didn't!' with a mouth wide open. Then I got even bolder and said 'the sadder thing is that racism runs so deep in Durham and the people are so stupid that they didn't question it. A black girl said she was raped by three [presumed wealthy] white Duke students so therefore she's a helpless victim, they are guilty and that's the end of it. ' The person I was talking to was not from here. But when I asked what the thoughts behind their opinion were I was accused of being racist and then told it was not relevant because they were guilty, I'd see and how dare I not back her. Um, OK. I let it go because sometimes you're just not going to win. As it happened, they were not guilty at all, the case should have died in a folder on the DA's desk but it didn't and Duke, the city of Durham, Nifong, NC and everyone involved has a lot to live with. Funny how nobody came back to say 'I apologize for rushing to judgement of these fine young men.' Nobody who swooped into to accuse and point fingers came back to offer an apology. Nifong and Duke did, under durress. Not a single person from NCCU said a thing. Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton, ever infamous for getting in the middle of every perceived injustice and making it their business to demand 'justice', did not come back to Durham to say they were wrong. If you cannot back up what you're saying, you might want to think 1st because you could ruin someone's life, reputation.
Anger Management
I know I have issues with it. I don't typically lash out and I'm not an abusive person. I just get teary over a lot of things that shouldn't tear a person up. I also get overly emotional about stuff I shouldn't get so much so over.
So how to deal...screaming it out, working out til my heart gives out, holding it in or better yet, work thru it 1 issue at a time....I think that's what I'll do. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pd3U1RtolLs Smacking someone upside the head like the penquin's doing is also a thought. 1 that makes me lmao actually. http://img69.imageshack.us/img69/6302/80858070zy3.gif
OK really I wouldn't do that but it's kinda funny to watch...so yeah I"m not angry at life or the world or anything. I don't care for democrats or tree huggers or hypocrites or people for whom slamming on their brakes is a 'turn signal' but otherwise...
It's old crap. That needs cleaned out permanently. So that's the next task.
So how to deal...screaming it out, working out til my heart gives out, holding it in or better yet, work thru it 1 issue at a time....I think that's what I'll do. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pd3U1RtolLs Smacking someone upside the head like the penquin's doing is also a thought. 1 that makes me lmao actually. http://img69.imageshack.us/img69/6302/80858070zy3.gif
OK really I wouldn't do that but it's kinda funny to watch...so yeah I"m not angry at life or the world or anything. I don't care for democrats or tree huggers or hypocrites or people for whom slamming on their brakes is a 'turn signal' but otherwise...
It's old crap. That needs cleaned out permanently. So that's the next task.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Bad me...Vewy Bad Me!
OK, so I'm not fulfilling my promise to myself to blog daily. A lot of stuff going on. Helping friends work thru issues, dealing with drama and stuff at work, now dealing with, as of Friday, not having a job. I knew it was coming and G, my boss, was surprised that I didn't freak. 1st of all, because I knew it was coming, odd as it sounds, it was a relief. I was no longer waiting for the other shoe to drop. It dropped at 3:30 ish. G had a 4:30 appt in Wake Forest and D was off and B, C and D2 were gone. I knew they couldn't afford me back in December. G felt like, as he put it, 'I shouldn't be surprised.' I wasn't. Then he said 'you don't seem surprised.' I'm not. I wasn't. I teared up a bit but was OK. I picked up my deskpad, mousepad and calendar Monday and dropped off some stuff.
It is what it is. they're giving me severance pay which I appreciate. I've updated my resume and references. I'm applying wherever I can think of. Trying to be upbeat. Told mom, Nicole and Robyn thus far. I called Dad & Sean. It's funny having bill collectors call bc they call, talk, talk, talk then stop [it would be helpful if they stopped to make sure they were still talking to a person but whatever] and the 1st thing I say is 'well, that's all kinds of lovely but I lost my job Friday and I don't know what to tell ya!' They're speechless then they go to 'so you don't have any money to make your account current?' Someone give that person a gold star! Hello, if I have a place to live 4/1....I got my big girl panties on and now I'm going to deal with it.
If you got the review I got in December, you would not have been shocked either. It was cruel, scathing, meant to make me say 'screw it, I quit'. That was so not gonna happen. I knew it was a matter of time. Every day I thought 'is today the day?' I always thought 'ok, who's gonna do it? ?' There is a point after which there is no return. Their program coach had informed them back in December that they could not afford to keep me.
They have several problems, not the least of which is that they are totally incompatible personalities. Neither of them knows how to apologize for anything. Then again to them they are never wrong. Then he said that I was not a good manager at all. Well that's hard to do when you're given a task then how you do it is either 'not what they expected' or it is done wrong and you're given no guidance about doing it 'right' or you're just lectured which is useful only if you're in college and taking notes or if you're military. So yeah.
I'm hunting, applying, hunting more. I will get there. Wherever there is.
It is what it is. they're giving me severance pay which I appreciate. I've updated my resume and references. I'm applying wherever I can think of. Trying to be upbeat. Told mom, Nicole and Robyn thus far. I called Dad & Sean. It's funny having bill collectors call bc they call, talk, talk, talk then stop [it would be helpful if they stopped to make sure they were still talking to a person but whatever] and the 1st thing I say is 'well, that's all kinds of lovely but I lost my job Friday and I don't know what to tell ya!' They're speechless then they go to 'so you don't have any money to make your account current?' Someone give that person a gold star! Hello, if I have a place to live 4/1....I got my big girl panties on and now I'm going to deal with it.
If you got the review I got in December, you would not have been shocked either. It was cruel, scathing, meant to make me say 'screw it, I quit'. That was so not gonna happen. I knew it was a matter of time. Every day I thought 'is today the day?' I always thought 'ok, who's gonna do it? ?' There is a point after which there is no return. Their program coach had informed them back in December that they could not afford to keep me.
They have several problems, not the least of which is that they are totally incompatible personalities. Neither of them knows how to apologize for anything. Then again to them they are never wrong. Then he said that I was not a good manager at all. Well that's hard to do when you're given a task then how you do it is either 'not what they expected' or it is done wrong and you're given no guidance about doing it 'right' or you're just lectured which is useful only if you're in college and taking notes or if you're military. So yeah.
I'm hunting, applying, hunting more. I will get there. Wherever there is.
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